3Y1W

Baby Rayvin is 3y1w, but till today nobody remembers. Well, what is Mummy expecting? Felt like an idiot. Anyway, we will always have each other, baby Rayvin. Love u and missing u so much ...

3rd Anniversary

Walking this sad and cold path alone, nobody else remembered, but Mummy had the little celebration. Fetched 'koko' Jayvin from his kindergarten and had lunch at Jusco. Later, we headed to RT Bakery to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 1 each for the 2 brothers. Nothing much but surprisingly, Jayvin was emotional, cried and keep asking Mummy why little 'titi' Rayvin died and he doesn't want 'titi' to die. Felt bad as Mummy involved Jayvin in this emotional path, but that's the fact!

Days go on, but this little heart of Mummy is still not in peace. It's still choking and tears still rolling down easily, even now. Mummy has to go on, and only for 1 person in this life, my beloved son, Jayvin. Mummy will always, always love you and miss you so much Baby Rayvin, even though we are separated in times and miles ...

3 Years Ago

3 years ago, Mummy was at the TDMC, anxiously waiting for the arrival of our new baby boy, Rayvin. A memorable day, a tearful day, supposed to be the tears of joy but ended up with tears of sorrow, emptiness and lost of hope and faith. Everything just tumbled down, crashing to the deepest end. No more light, only tears and sadness. The scenario was still so clear in Mummy's mind and it felt like just yesterday. Even though, time goes on, people change, environment change, but nothing will erase you from Mummy's mind. It's a sad, sad, day but who cares? Nobody ! Everyone goes on with their own agenda, leaving Mummy walking through this lonely path alone. It hurts deeply but life goes on. Miss you so much, especially today. Cant even work today.

Last night was a cold and extraordinary windy night. Bathroom door opened by itself several times, the chimes rang in melody, the violent gush of wind trying to make its way to the bedroom and Mummy was wondering .... Were you there ???

Missing you and love you so much, so, so much ...

Simple Birthday 2011

Daddy bought Mummy's birthday cake from Mummy's favourite bakery shop, and it's supposed to be a surprise. Well, it's a surprise birthday cake every year. Had a simple candle blowing, all in our pajamas. Well, that's a difference and special ...

Actually, Mummy had a birthday party celebration with colleagues few days later. A private karaoke session with dinner buffet. It came with a complimentary 'icing cake' and birthday song. Totally crazy & fun ...

Working weekend 2

Mummy's working weekend happened to be Bersih 2.0 rally. A rally of fellow Malaysian for a clean and fair election. A serious crackdown by the police force started 2 weeks earlier. Bersih 2.0 yellow T-shirts were confiscated, several VIP activists were captured and the worst part was the closure of major roads, supposedly to capture the wanted person.

Mummy was never interested in politics till the fateful date, 9July, the day of Bersih 2.0. Mummy was on the way to Summit Hotel in Subang, around 30 km from downtown KL and a very peaceful place, far away from the rally venue. The nightmare came when Mummy was about to reach Summit, 3 minutes away and there was a police block. A big group of police were there, on standby, just standing by and doing nothing at all. 5 lanes highway were narrowed to only 1 lane and the conjestion was horrible. Vehiches were trapped, crawling by inches, tension running high. Mummy was one of them, cramped like a sandwich, blood pressure rising and we started to honk and honk and honk. Unfortunately the noisy horn landed on the deaf ears of the police force. Only 2 policemen were working while the rest were just deep in conversation, smoking or laughing with their peers. It was terrible. Mummy took 1 hour, instead of 3 minutes to reach the destination. Many of us were the victims of the police block. We never had any intention to support the Bersih 2.0, but after the unfortunate event and victimised, we were left with not much choice.

May Malaysia has a better and fair election. Let us, the Malaysian decude fairly ... What a great working weekend ...

Working Weekend

Mummy will be working this weekend, 1st working weekend. Booth participation at ADMAN Summit Hotel, Subang Jaya. So far so good, but very, very busy. Feels great and full of confidence. Thankful to God and everyone who wishes me the best ...

Sad, Sad Jayvin

Daddy finally told Jayvin that he is going to outstation for 4 days and upon hearing that Jayvin cried, cried n cried. Very pitiful cried. Daddy is actually going for a hardcore 4x4 trip with grandpa in Terengganu.

How come Jayvin never cry or miss Mummy when Mummy travel outstation??? Sigh ... Jealous, jealous ...

Plan to bring Jayvin shopping today, to the cinema to watch Transformer n trying hard to make him forget Daddy's absence for the next 4 days ...