CNY 2012

Mummy & Jayvin were in KB for the CNY celebration for 10 days. Really fun filled with abundance of food, joy & laughter ...

Counting to 5 (4Y,11M,1W,6D)

11.11.11

Today is 11.11.11, a special & an auspicious date. However, nothing special over here, at least for today.

Mummy went for medical check-up yesterday, compulsory before joining D. Hopefully, everything will be fine & Mummy will be able to start working by 21st Nov. Yeah, finally ... Supposed to start on the 16th, but too troublesome as Mummy is throwing a birthday party for Jayvin in his school on the 17th. A day which he has been waiting for a long, long time. If fact, he has diligently helping out in preparing his party bags, from buying to packing them ...

Happy Birthday, 'Koko' Jayvin ...

A New Beginning

New hope, new beginning, new life ... Life is beautiful ...

Still waiting for the D HR to prepare the offer letter. Target date - 15 Nov, tbc.

Anyway, thank you for all the prayers and thank you to Jayvin & Rayvin. Love you all ...

3rd Round

Mummy is attending the 3rd round interview at D later. Hopefully, a fruitful one ... Let this be the last ever session for many years to go ... Love u, Jayvin & Rayvin.

Exam Week

It's 'Koko' Jayvin exam week again. Mummy is 'kan cheong' over it, much more compared to Jayvin. Had been fetching Jayvin everyday from school since Monday & guide him through with the revisions. A tiring job, hmmm ..., so much tiring compared to working. Such a relieve that today is his last paper. I guess that's a norm for all mothers with school going children ... Ohh, so many more exciting years to go ...

It's Friday

Yeah, going to fetch 'Koko' Jayvin from school later. Has been a practice to fetch him every Friday since Mummy is not working. Well, spend some precious time with him while Mummy afford to ...

Mummy looked through this blog again just now, backdated to years ago, times when the pain of losing baby angel Rayvin was so intense. Weeping queitly in this little bedroom, flashed back to memories years ago - the hope, the happiness, the shock, the madness, the despair, the disappointment, the sadness, the 'nothing' in the end  ...

Ohh, it's still so painful. It hurts so much. It has changed Mummy's life so much, Mummy's thoughts, Mummy's actions nowadays. It hurts & will always be ...

Missing you & loving you so much, baby Rayvin (3Y3M5D) ...

Beautiful ...

Back to Norm

'Koko' Jayvin is back to school today after 5 days away from school. A bit cranky this morning. Hopefully, he is well & able to catch up with all those revision. This week is the school's revision week, preparing for next week exams.

Nothing much, still waiting for the positive replies and calls.

The 2nd interview at D last Monday went rather well, minus Mummy's bad cough and sore throat. Mummy was given an opportunity for a new position, a position that was not approved yet! The GM needs to discuss further with her boss again. Sigh, a waiting game ... a risky game ...

It has been a month now, hopefully there is a bright light at the other side of the tunnel ...

Happy Deepavali

Yesterday was the Deepavali celebration for the Hindus. However, the Aunty & her family were all celebrating in Karak, therefore no Deepavali open house for yesterday. Might visit them in Cheras this weekend though, to be confirmed later. After all, 'Koko' Jayvin needs to stay at home to fully recover and revise his study !!!

Measles

Next week is exam week for 'Koko' Jayvin and upon hearing it last Friday, Jayvin was down with high fever on Saturday afternoon, followed by continuous vomiting and high fever over the night. He developed red spots on his abdomen on Sunday afternoon and declared as measles on Monday.

Today, he is resting at home, been away from school for 2 days but is still playful, except for the persistent itchiness on both his limbs, head, in fact the whole body. A long holiday for him and away from the revision and school. A good timing for him. Well, that's 'Koko' Jayvin, intelligent but very, very lazy ...

Meaningful ...

Hooray ...

Not the best news, but at least the 2nd interview is scheduled for next Monday with the GM. Finally ... Still waiting for the response from the L company for the tele-interview. Just can't wait to go back to work ... Please answer my little prayer ...

Pap Smear

Had been 3 long years since Mummy's last pap smear. Gathering up the courage, Mummy went for the test this morning at the 1Malaysia Clinic, Seri Malaysia, which is only 5 minutes away from our home. The best part is it only cost RM1!!! This also include the breast examination. Amazing yeah, where else outside GPs charge around RM80. The down side is Mummy has to wait for around 1 month for the test result. With only RM1, it can always wait ...

Peaceful ...

Living in a slow-paced lifestyle now. Feels good & refreshing. Keep up with all the 'things-to-do' which have been postponed for ages now. Run a bit of the errand yesterday, and great to announce that Mummy is almost finishing the 2nd novels, just within a week. Hmm .. the Shopaholics series, very entertaining. Peaceful & lovely life, but miss a bit of the fast & mad, mad world out there. Lose out on the latest gossips & happenings too. Miss the S11 too ...

Hopefully, the new 'Star' will change everything & according to the 2012 prediction, it's the best ever year for Rabbit, especially the Wood Rabbit. Ohh, just can't wait ...

Today ...

There are two days in every week that we should not worry about,
Two days that should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One is YESTERDAY, with its mistakes and cares,
Its faults and blunders, its aches and pains.
YESTERDAY has passed forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world cannot bring back YESTERDAY.
We cannot undo a single act we performed.
Nor can we erase a single word we've said - YESTERDAY is gone!
The other day we shouldn't worry about is TOMORROW,
With its impossible adversaries, its burden,
Its hopeful promise and poor performance.
TOMORROW is beyond our control.
TOMORROW'S sun will rise either in splendor,
Or behind a mask of clouds - but it will rise.
And until it does, we have no stake in TOMORROW,
For it is yet unborn.
This leaves only one day - TODAY.
Any person can fight the battles of just one day.
It is only when we add the burdens of ,
YESTERDAY and TOMORROW that we break down.
It is not the experience of TODAY that drives people mad,
It is the remorse of bitterness for something,
Which happened YESTERDAY,
And the dread of what TOMORROW may bring.

Let us, therefore, LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME!
LIVE FOR NOW, TODAY!!

3 Weeks

It has been 3 weeks since Mummy stayed at home 'goyang kaki'. Too tired to narrate. Taking this opportunity to rest well before going out to the battle field again. Hopefully, things will be better this time. The past experience were definitely valuable but please, no more. Can't cope with all the madness, stress and most importantly, the violent office politics ...

Currently, Mummy is a stay home mom. Sound rather nice yeah, but rather worrying too as with Mummy's lifestyle and shopping trend, $$$ are too important to be ignored.

Love you, miss you ...

Mooncake Fest 12Sept2011

Celebrated a simple dinner gathering at MIL for this year Mooncake Fest (12Sept). Jayvin had a new 'Ben 10' modern light lantern ready with pop music, and the conventional paper lanterns but printed with the latest 'Angry Bird'. Lovely evening ...

Malacca 10-11 Sept

Mummy, Daddy & 'Koko' Jayvin went to Malacca recently. Mummy's best friend, L's brother is getting married. Mummy had known L and her family since Form 6, which means 18 years ago. Wow, time really flies. Still remember when we were the ladies motor-cycle gang, stay back for revision together, 'makan-makan', 'lepak-lepak' etc.

A short 2D1N trip but rather fun. Went cruising around the town, ate a lot too, bought some as well ...

Moody

Not really in the mood today. Had a little chat with aunty D last night about Grandma and VR. Did Mummy pushed it too hard? Do not want Grandma to be too exhausted and stress. At the same time, have to think of VR too as he is only appproaching 2 soon. A little bit cheeky and naughty at times, but a cute and intelligent little boy for sure.

Maybe Mummy is the one who is stress. We end up the little discussion to an emotional moment. It was sad and confusing, a bit too late too ...Aunty said Mummy has changed now, who is not? So many things had happenned, how can it be the still the same ??? It's a long and winding journey out there ...

Kuantan Holiday Again

Mummy and Koko Jayvin are having our own holiday. We are here in Kuantan since Tuesday. Celebrated Grandpa n Veyron's birthday on Wednesday, spent almost a day in Swiss Garden pool and beach yesterday, and now we are here again, at the S-G pool.

A nice holiday, not too great but ok and time flies as the long 9 days holiday are almost to the end now ...

Love u, baby Rayvin ...

Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary

Went to Kuala Gandah (on the way to Kuantan) on 28Aug with 'Kong Kong', Grandma, Aunty D & family, and 'Koko' Jayvin, of course. A great family trip and we were thrilled with excitement. Enjoyed the elephant feeding, elephant rides, elephant bathing and it's a great place for children to learn about nature and animals. Despite the hot sunny weather, all of us had so much fun ...

Aching ...

Our house was in a mess when Mummy came back. Heartache, headache, bodyache n it started all over again ...

Penang Again

Mummy is in Penang since yesterday. Another working trip and hopefully a fruitful visit. Stayed in hotel room the whole night yesterday, cough, sore throat with husky voice and bodyache is tampering the mood. Had been suffering this almost a week now but the hot sunny day and heavy rain in the evening is not really helping.

Love u and miss u so much last night, today and everyday ...

Btw, aunty Leong has suddenly fall into coma and passed away. A shocking news, but what can we do ??? Life goes on ... Have to be strong.

Family Time 21 Aug 2011

Family time at the Sky Bar, Trader's hotel roof top with beautiful KL city view with the magnificent Petronas Twin Tower just by the side. Delicious food too, just a bit pricey though ... RM15++ for a glass of fruit juice, but it's acceptable considering the atmosphere and breath-taking view they offer ... Had a great time ... Miss you, baby Rayvin ...

3Y1W

Baby Rayvin is 3y1w, but till today nobody remembers. Well, what is Mummy expecting? Felt like an idiot. Anyway, we will always have each other, baby Rayvin. Love u and missing u so much ...

3rd Anniversary

Walking this sad and cold path alone, nobody else remembered, but Mummy had the little celebration. Fetched 'koko' Jayvin from his kindergarten and had lunch at Jusco. Later, we headed to RT Bakery to buy 2 pieces of cakes, 1 each for the 2 brothers. Nothing much but surprisingly, Jayvin was emotional, cried and keep asking Mummy why little 'titi' Rayvin died and he doesn't want 'titi' to die. Felt bad as Mummy involved Jayvin in this emotional path, but that's the fact!

Days go on, but this little heart of Mummy is still not in peace. It's still choking and tears still rolling down easily, even now. Mummy has to go on, and only for 1 person in this life, my beloved son, Jayvin. Mummy will always, always love you and miss you so much Baby Rayvin, even though we are separated in times and miles ...

3 Years Ago

3 years ago, Mummy was at the TDMC, anxiously waiting for the arrival of our new baby boy, Rayvin. A memorable day, a tearful day, supposed to be the tears of joy but ended up with tears of sorrow, emptiness and lost of hope and faith. Everything just tumbled down, crashing to the deepest end. No more light, only tears and sadness. The scenario was still so clear in Mummy's mind and it felt like just yesterday. Even though, time goes on, people change, environment change, but nothing will erase you from Mummy's mind. It's a sad, sad, day but who cares? Nobody ! Everyone goes on with their own agenda, leaving Mummy walking through this lonely path alone. It hurts deeply but life goes on. Miss you so much, especially today. Cant even work today.

Last night was a cold and extraordinary windy night. Bathroom door opened by itself several times, the chimes rang in melody, the violent gush of wind trying to make its way to the bedroom and Mummy was wondering .... Were you there ???

Missing you and love you so much, so, so much ...

Simple Birthday 2011

Daddy bought Mummy's birthday cake from Mummy's favourite bakery shop, and it's supposed to be a surprise. Well, it's a surprise birthday cake every year. Had a simple candle blowing, all in our pajamas. Well, that's a difference and special ...

Actually, Mummy had a birthday party celebration with colleagues few days later. A private karaoke session with dinner buffet. It came with a complimentary 'icing cake' and birthday song. Totally crazy & fun ...

Working weekend 2

Mummy's working weekend happened to be Bersih 2.0 rally. A rally of fellow Malaysian for a clean and fair election. A serious crackdown by the police force started 2 weeks earlier. Bersih 2.0 yellow T-shirts were confiscated, several VIP activists were captured and the worst part was the closure of major roads, supposedly to capture the wanted person.

Mummy was never interested in politics till the fateful date, 9July, the day of Bersih 2.0. Mummy was on the way to Summit Hotel in Subang, around 30 km from downtown KL and a very peaceful place, far away from the rally venue. The nightmare came when Mummy was about to reach Summit, 3 minutes away and there was a police block. A big group of police were there, on standby, just standing by and doing nothing at all. 5 lanes highway were narrowed to only 1 lane and the conjestion was horrible. Vehiches were trapped, crawling by inches, tension running high. Mummy was one of them, cramped like a sandwich, blood pressure rising and we started to honk and honk and honk. Unfortunately the noisy horn landed on the deaf ears of the police force. Only 2 policemen were working while the rest were just deep in conversation, smoking or laughing with their peers. It was terrible. Mummy took 1 hour, instead of 3 minutes to reach the destination. Many of us were the victims of the police block. We never had any intention to support the Bersih 2.0, but after the unfortunate event and victimised, we were left with not much choice.

May Malaysia has a better and fair election. Let us, the Malaysian decude fairly ... What a great working weekend ...